being confuse

In this several days, there is something that makes me confuse. this love, not like the normal love, this is unfair love, because I've boyfriend. actually, I try to predict what happen with me, maybe I just lost care from my boyfriend, because start from his thesis, he is unfocus with me. I try to understand it, but some part of my life can't received well. I don't know what happen but I just entering the playing with fire world. but I try to exit. this is it! 50 percent of my life wanna exit but the other still wanna stay in that world. oh God, I hope I never know this new guy, because this new guy really attrackting me, more the others.